Entries for May, 2006
May 2nd, 2006
A Tiny List of Expressions That My Dad Uses POSTED AT 01:10 PM Observe: - the same cookie cutter - bread and butter business - dump him in the water and he'll swim - sindihan ang puwet - success breeds success, failure breeds more failure - give me a fish and you'll feed me for a day. Teach me how to fish and you'll feed me for a lifetime - if the mountain won't go to Mohammed, Mohammed will go to the mountain - running around like a headless chicken - knock your head against the wall - don't curse the darkness, light a candle Many more will come soon, as I glean them off my dad. Enjoy deciphering them, or if you can't, drop me a comment! (IN THE COMMENT BOX. COMMENTS AND INQUIRIES ON THE TAGBOARD ABOUT THIS ENTRY WILL NOT BE ENTERTAINED.) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Please, Please, Please by Shout Out Louds Long time ago The times we had were so and so It was the worst date of your life So I called your home your so-called father was on the phone He wasn't easy to ignore But we're all happy cause the streets they're always there for us And it's quite scary when you wake up in the same old clubs It's getting darker and I know this time wasn't meant for us So won't you please please please come back to me But yesterday when i saw your eyes in a black haze You didn't even know my name So I walked on pretending that you still belong but it will never be the same no more But we're all happy cause the streets they're always there for us and it's quite scary when you wake up in the same old clubs It's getting darker and I know this time wasn't meant for us So won't you please please please come back to me It's like a picture of a loved one in disguise or it's like finding something pretty in a jar of lies and if you want just hide your eyes behind your hair but you can't see me then you can't find me anywhere But we're all happy cause the streets they're always there for us and it's quite scary when you wake up in the same old clubs It's getting darker and I know this time wasn't meant for us So won't you please please please come back to me Come back to me Please please please Please please please THIS SONG GETS A 11/10 FROM ME! GET A COPY AND LISTEN TO IT! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- AL fic getting a move on! I need a gimmick. Doing the Inventory with Jay is tiring. How can he do that every month??? I think Charlene hates me for forcing her to learn Chinese. *chews lip/fingers* TO SOMEONE: HAH! I CAN RESIST CHATTING YOU UP IN YM! HAH! 5 freed the words
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May 4th, 2006
Ilang awit pa ba ang aawitin, o giliw ko? POSTED AT 12:52 AM Tunay na walang humpay ang aking ligaya. Maliban rito, napapapunta ako sa aking paaralan, ngunit hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin pagdating ko roon. Ano, maglalakwatsa na lamang? Maaari ring dalawin ko ang ilan sa aking mga lumang guro. Hindi ko alam kung maaari ko na ring asikasuhin ang enrollment ko. Tingnan nalang natin, ano? ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Okay, elsewhere, CHIPS! I hadn't had Chips in two months. So I was really happy yesterday. But the payoff? I got cough. I hate life.    I have been randomly showing people Screenshots of Heroes 5 (above) and they've been quite pleased. I told Bardo that the graphics of Heroes 5 were orgasmic, and when I showed him the screenshots, he was like, "You weren't kidding about the graphics." I showed Raphael too. His reaction went like this: Me: it's called Heroes of Might and Magic Me: have you heard of it? Raphael: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Raphael: THAT'S HEROES OF MIGHT AND MAGIC??? Raphael: WHAT VERSION IS THIS???? So as you can see, the reviews are raking in. HEROES FIVE MUST COME OUT ALREADY! I DON'T THINK I CAN WAIT TIL THE 19TH OF MAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IFUCKINGWANTHEROESFIVEANDIDON'TWANNAWAITFORITCANYOUSUE METHOUGHIT'SSOEVILTOBEMADETOWAITAFTERTHEDEMOISRELEASEDO HGODTHEGRAPHICSAREORGASMICANDIFYOU'VEREADTHISFAR,THENYO U'REAVERYBOREDHUMANBEINGANDYOUSHOULDPROBABLYGETSOMETHI NGTODOOTHERTHANREADINGHORRIBLYWRITTENPARAGRAPHSLIKETHIS THATDON'TGIVEANYHEEDTOSPACESANDPUNCTUATIONMARKS. Elswhere... HENRY! UPDATE YOUR BLOG ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The Swamp episode of Avatar is cool... the most Waterbending I've seen Katara do ever since the last few episodes of Season 1. Stupid thing though: (Yes, I know, Henry. But it's a blog so I can rant) WHY DIDN'T KATARA EVEN CONSIDER FREEZING THE VINES??? IF SHE FROZE THEM WITH WATER, THEY'D DIE. OR IT WOULD IMMOBILIZE THE VINES ENOUGH FOR THE DUDE INSIDE NOT TO BE ABLE TO BEND THE VINES SO THEY COULD ESCAPE! OR SOMETHING! And I hated the Appa-Momo subplot. More focus on Katara's awesome bending, next time, please! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A few lines to a poem I made up in my head: (not complete yet, so don't expect something Shakespeare-esque) At night is when you're trapped When words hurt the most and you can't run from your nightmares Morning warmth is no redemption from cold sweat That's when I'll strike You can crush my soul from dawn to dusk, but once it's dark, all the pain is justified. |
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May 5th, 2006
I Need New Chinese Songs In My Computer POSTED AT 07:58 AM I need new Chinese songs. Does anyone have any? I spent a whole chunk of this morning perfecting my falsetto imitation of the Rascal Flatts' Words I Couldn't Say. Honestly, I don't even LIKE the song, but Andrew and Alex have been playing it nonstop along with Stand, which I love. And so ayun. Naaddict. Elsewhere, I've been stealing large clumps of HEroes 5-related images to put on my Multiply and that's basically what ate up my morning. Now I want to go to school, I'm afraid to get my teeth pulled out and I want to go to the office. Ah fuckit. Tomorrow! |
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May 6th, 2006
A Disturbingly Starcraft Like Dream POSTED AT 05:57 AM I am unsure as to how it starts, exactly, but in the dream, I am a human, we (the Terran) have guns that look like Ghostbusters' ghost-shockers and I, apparently, have the power to freeze (exactly like Piper--and with corresponding wrist-flicking-motions). There is a race of intelligent beings (the Protoss in my dream) that have green wrinkly skin, pointed heads and look like some characters from Star Wars (sort of like a taller, older, wrinklier and less benevolent version of Yoda). Yes, wrong universe, but that's what they looked like. And dreams are dreams. You know, come to think of it, even the rooms they were staying in looked palpably reminiscent of Star Wars--new agey, clean and white, with doors that are opened by buttons and make those nice sounds when you do. Elsewhere, there is also a race of gruesome, blood-thirsty, death-obsessed freakazoids with glowing red eyes, dark green-to-black skin always hiding in the shadows. These are the Zergs. And they looked like the Alien dude in Alien vs. Predator. Now here's the stupid part of the dream: The Protoss dudes and the Zergs live in two connected ships. Yep. There are two totally separate ships except for a small corridor that connects them. Don't ask me why they didn't destroy it. Anyway... I got several outside-views of the ships and they looked like the ship Cid/Sid however you spell his name was piloting in Final Fantasy X. Except the Protoss' was white and grayish but the Zergs' were a very dark shade of gray. Um, like Obsidian actually. So the parts that I remember go as such: First, I step into the corridor that separates the two (you know, I didn't catch a glimpse if there was a Terran ship, but I assumed (for some reason) that almost all the Terrans had been wiped out because of tiny skirmish-harassments that went on between Protoss and Zerg), and it was actually a small, small corridor, with a door that opened to the Protoss ship straight ahead, and one that opened to the Zerg ship to my left. There was no light in this corridor, and it would fit about 2 people by 3 people. Yes, I know measurements have never been done like that. Basta ganoon! As I step into the corridor, I see creatures that looked like Zerglings and a set of Marines from Protoss scuffling blows. I bring my Ghost-buster-y gun out and blast the Zerglings into oblivion (which is funny, because I always loved Zerglings as a child. They were cute... and I always played Zerg), but they become a sort of supernatural goo and look like they're creeping back into the Zerg ship. Well, so apparently, helping beat the Zerglings is like a rite of passage, cos I'm allowed into the Protoss ship, the only part of which my character in the dream is allowed to see is a room. When I look down, I see a whole Protoss nation below us. So when you enter the room, here's what it looks like. Everything is white. The Exit Door of the ship goes out into air, but there's a Protoss commander guarding the outside.  Then I forgot what else occurs, but suddenly, the whole Protoss ship/nation is thrust into war. Then I realize that the two ships I'm on are actually just envoys. Anyhow, a week or so passes and the war is in full-throttle. All the Protoss Intellectuals had been massacred by the Zerg during the siege of the Protoss nation. So the Protoss hid the remaining/surviving intellectuals (which were short and looked like babies from top view) in the room I was in on the ship. We sensed some kind of impending danger right outside the room, in the corridor. I realized my gun was nowhere to be found, so I raised my hands and got ready to freeze whatever might pop in while the remaining troops get ready to fire at it. Then for some reason, I get mighty sleepy and almost fall asleep but I force myself awake. Then we "sense" the Zerg in the adjacent ship "scan" our ship for Protoss Intellectuals. Except that it isn't a biological scan, it's more of just looking through each room/cell in the ship to see if there are any Protoss that might look smart. We only sensed this of course. Now because it's my dream, I got a top view of the Zerg's scan, and as they flitted by each cell, they saw nothing, and when they got to our room, they drifted over the bed, and saw... The Intellectual Protoss. But because it was from top view, they looked like babies, and therefore, they skipped ours. When we couldn't sense anything anymore, we cheered. Now, do you remember Raynor? Yeah, the bald Terran dude that liked Kerrigan? Oh, yes, you remember Sarah Kerrigan too? Well, she became a Zerg, right? Well, imagine that happening to Raynor. Green-black tattooes and all. Now imagine an Infested Raynor breaking through the Exit Door. And shooting randomly with his armalite. So I jump (as in jump up because i'm surprised, not out the exit door), and freeze him. I flying kick him out of the ship, and he plummets down into a bunch clouds and doesn't live. I look down at the clouds, and I feel this sort of overwhelmingly warming feeling inside me, as if I know that we're going to win this war. And that's when the dream ends. I Won't Be Lost - Natalie Imbruglia Fallen three times in a row Waking up with vertigo But you were there to break my fall Before I had to face it all Don't let me go Don't let me go Cause I wouldn't wanna move on without you I won't be lost Next time you see me my pain will be gone Baby, believe me I been trying But my heart keeps on breaking I won't be lost Smiling like a billionaire Hoping you were unaware The walls in side were caving in My world had come apart again Don't let me it show Don't let them know That I wouldn't be very strong without you I won't be lost Next time you see me my pain will be gone Baby, believe me Iâ??ve been trying But my heart keeps on breaking I won't be lost Don't you give up on me Cause I wouldn't be very strong And I wouldn't wanna move on without you I won't be lost Next time you see me my pain will be gone Baby believe me I been trying but my heart keeps on breaking I won't be lost I won't be lost |
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May 8th, 2006
Oh, The Shallowness POSTED AT 04:38 AM I am shallow. I made Icons. Now check them out in my multiply: FOR ALL YOU KNOW!!! |
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May 9th, 2006
Surprises. POSTED AT 11:01 AM It was good to speak with you again. Ah, yes, my love. But how was I to know that from that day forth, I was no longer to call you that? Yes. I do not love you. A part of me is confused. I should love you. You are absolute. You are The One. You were. I saw myself with no one else. Until now. It's true. Not a thread out of place in your raiments. Not a stain in your innocence and perfection. You're perfect, and you're beautiful. But I don't love you. My mind is sure that I should be in love with you. But my heart is telling it otherwise. Oh, my my, this is quite a unique situation we're in, isn't it? Well, I'll see you again, but we won't be tied anymore. Not by my emotion, not by their rules, not by either of our duties. Have a nice life. Listening to: ???? Hei Se You Mo by ??? Jay Chou |
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May 10th, 2006
4 Out of 6 POSTED AT 02:01 PM Well, I promised to update as soon as I finished Death right? Through some miracle, I managed to squeeze the whole Life Campaign in while I played Death. That's why it took so long. Life: 5 Levels. "The True Blade" Lysander is an orphan general that has worked very hard to build Palaedra into a strong kingdom. Although the people wish him to be the next King, he refuses because he has no Gryphonheart (royal) blood. One day, a man named Sir Worton appears, claiming that he is a descendant of the Gryphonheart line. This he proves by drawing the Gryphonheart Blade from its scabbard, which only a true Gryphonheart heir can do. In his heart, Lysander is positive that he is merely an imposter, but how can he prove it? Death: 5 levels. "Half-Dead" Gauldoth Half-Dead's first memory was of a tomb where a Vampire named Loscan kept him to feed on his blood as a baby. Kalibarr, a member of the Necromantic Order like Loscan, saw Gauldoth's potential and had Loscan killed. Kalibarr then became Gauldoth's master, training him in the Necromantic Arts. But when a fire violently claims the whole Necromantic Order, Gauldoth barely manages to save himself by casting a spell that makes half of him undead. Since, he has lived in the forest like an animal, eating other animals. But one day, as he carves the kingdom Nekross out into the map, he discovers that his Master is in fact alive, but when he saves him, he sees that Kalibarr is a different man, himself serving a master. What Gauldoth comes to face is a being that is bent on wiping out life and undeath on Earth. Might seems to be very, very interesting. But for the Chaos campaign, Tawni Balfour's attitude pisses me off. Let me spoil the campaign of Might for you: Level One Spoken Introduction: I know you don't understand it now, Waerjak, but someday you will. Yes we are Barbarians. Yes, we are born warriors. But a warrior is not just a killer. He's a protector! You must have respect for life, and an even greater respect for your ability to take it. Otherwise, you're just a murderer. Written Introduction: The tribeless warrior, Waerjak, realizes that if the Barbarian people don't turn from their life of murder and war they are going to disappear forever. So, Waerjak and his foster father, Tarnum, rejoin their people after a lifetime of wandering to transform the Barbarian society into one that puts the community first. Perhaps then, they will survive extinction. Level Two: Spoken Introduction: No, our strength is not our muscle, or an iron blade! Muscles grow weak with age and disease. Iron rusts in the rain and melts under flame. Our strength is the community! Together, we can provide food for our children, create great works of art, and defeat our enemies. Community is forever! Written Introduction: After only a few months of rule, Waerjak proved that Barbarians could prosper without war. In fact, his small kingdom is now one of the richest in all the Tribal Lands. But like jackals to a fresh kill, two warlords set their greedy eyes on these lands. Now, Waerjak must fight a necessary war and prove that he can defend his people against this new threat. Level Three: Spoken Introduction: See there, Waerjak, that pack of mountain dogs moving through the valley? See how the injured one limps off from the rest? He knows he's dragging down the pack. As long as he's with them, they keep his pace. They won't force him out because they love him, so he stays behind. He will die so that they remain strong. It's not always easy, but the pack comes first. Written Introduction: Waerjak faces a terrible choice when he learns that Vogel Backbreaker holds his foster father, Tarnum, captive. Meanwhile, in another neighboring land, the warlord, Hundric, holds hundreds of Barbarian women and children as slaves, working them to death trying to build a new army. Waerjak can't save both. Level Four: Spoken Introduction: I have a lesson for you, Waerjak. See here, a pair of mating spiders, and a scorpion - equally poisonous creatures. Watch how the scorpion easily kills the male spider because he is so small. Now, the female, enraged by the loss of her mate, attacks the scorpion with everything she's got. You see, she kills the scorpion, but at what cost? Her own life. Such blind hate is dangerous, and pointless! Written Introduction: A single warlord stands in the way of Waerjak's goal to unite the Barbarian tribes into one community and bring them back from the brink of extinction. That man is the same one who killed his father, w Waerjak possesses a special hatred for Vogel Backbreaker. In this most desperate time, he must conquer his emotions if he is going to have any chance of defeating his greatest enemy. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The mentality. So profound. Especially 3 and 4. And the application--beautiful. I wanna play that next. Might. Yep. |
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May 12th, 2006
Today, Yesterday, and other Bits of My Life POSTED AT 10:43 AM I just realized how terribly close the start of school is. And yet I don't feel recharged, not like I did last summer. Uh-oh. This year is gonna suck. I can feel it. It's gonna be another endless barrage of homework and work-work and other such annoying things. I went out with Henry and Raphie yesterday, and it was the most refreshing thing. It was great to see them again. Actually, we'd planned to go over to Henry's house. I tried to get there at ten, but I couldn't cos there was no driver. I went to the office. Dad told me that if I waited a while, he could bring me. I told Henry this. So from 9:45 onwards, I waited. And waited. And at one o' clock, I was eating lunch at the office, but hadn't gone anywhere. I apologized to Henry and said I'd get there at about two thirty. Henry and Raphie went ahead to Promenade as I scrambled home to find Alex. I played the computer and wasted infinite time as the driver went to eat lunch, wound up getting caught into doing a Police Report by mom (which she later denies), and comes back to as at about 1:45. We go to the office again so I can get a permit/money and Alex goes and complains to mom. He accuses her of forcing the driver to stay, and mom denies it, then accuses him of delaying the driver. This causes a rather violent fight between the two, which resulted in slammed doors and Alex driving the car like he's mad at it. Yeah, because in case you don't know, Alex doesn't have very good control of his emotions. And when he's feeling especially pissed (whether or not it's directed at a specific someone), he takes it out by driving the car recklessly, breaking the speed limit, not slowing down on speed bumps and swerving. Then he turns the radio's volume up to full blast while he pouts and sulks at the road. Well Alex is an asshole. So I was dropped at Promenade and met them at Fully Booked, and after much squabbling, forced them straight to the theatres, where we were twelve minutes away from the beginning of the Trailers, which I always love to catch. We get into Poseidon with popped corn and drinks (coke and something for Henry and Raphie and water for me). Now this movie was fantastic. Very nice. Very interesting, although a pity that so many people had to die. I have no other qualms. Then we walked to the new mall, I got some Dippin Dots (three flavors... whoo! I remember Pecan Chocolate and Banana something, but not the other thing) and we proceeded to hang around the Theatre Mall area while we waited for Henry's fetcher to bring us back to his place. Once we were there, we saw his adorable new puppy, which bore strange resemblance to Rap-Rap, my auntie Jessamine's old dog, and we saw Kimberly play with it. We had pizza and Henry let me have a crack at his new DS Game, Lost Magic. Then I went home after Raphie. Today... was... successful. COMICS!!!!!! IT'S STARTED!!!!!!!! |
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May 13th, 2006
My Blogging Style POSTED AT 12:16 AM
Okay, first of all--I don't change my blog often. I haven't in a year now. Second... I'm not what you would call hiyang to that "unusual" comment. |
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May 16th, 2006
Til The Morning POSTED AT 02:32 AM Jackie's parents were out til early morning. And I called her up, and I told her I'd sleep at nine, but I ended up sleeping at one thirty. Cos you know, her house is awfully big, and it can get quite eerie there if it's dark and no one's home. I guess Jackie felt that, so I chatted the night away with her. Then at the end, when I was about to go to sleep, she said "Thanks, a." and that held a lot of impact for me. Maybe I should've stayed with her until her parents got home. Dammit. I know i should've. |
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May 17th, 2006
Orthodontist Visit POSTED AT 06:42 AM Then we waited til 9:50 ++ to be entertained because we were late, so we got moved down. Dr. Joseph Macasiray is a very well-known, efficient and highly professional orthodontist. He hums when he works, which strangely made me feel better about the teeth he was yanking out of my gums, and the drill he was jackhammering my teeth out with. He also shows utmost care at wherever he was working on, asking if it hurt here, and described exactly what you were supposed to be hearing or feeling so that you don't get surprised when you feel/hear something. No wonder mom was adamant about having him as an orthodontist for me. OH MY GOD, I HAVE FEELING BACK IN MY LIPS! Well actually just one part of the left side. Everything is numb and unmovable. Let me tell ya, it's the most disorienting thing not to feel your lower lip when you eat. I had so much porridge on my lower lip because it was all numb. Wisdom Teeth Extraction = not a pretty process. There was a LOT of blood. Anyway. So he rubbed some anesthetic paste on my gums first before injecting, and it mostly didn't hurt, until he got to the outermost sides, which had no paste. Bite of an ant my ass, mom. So then he starts on my left side. Throughout the operation, I was constantly reminded to open my mouth. It kept involuntarily closing because it was painful to keep it stretched with the anesthesia. So he started drilling and yanking, and cutting my tooth up before removing it from my mouth. The left side was mostly fine. But when he got to the right side, apparently, the tooth was much larger than it should have been. So he drilled some more, which he assumed from the sudden jerk I made, was extremely painful. So he injected MORE anesthesia. Just great. So he cuts and drills even more, but nothing seems to be working, and several times, the annoying nurse woman kept shoving the suction-hose down my throat, which would cause me to gag, which would cause Dr. Macasiray to jump. He tells her not to point it at my throat (although I thought that would've been fairly obvious.) and continues. Then with the forceps, he clamps at the offending tooth and did unnamable things to pull it out. The right side of my lips and mouth feels stretched. Ouch. At one point, when one of the male nurses had to hold my head from behind me so Dr. Macasiray could yank and drill to his heart's content, I just realized the hilarity of the situation and began guffawing, much to the everyone's dismay. Oh, and by the way, mom's hand on my ankle at the other end of the chair was supremely, effing annoying. So afterwards, he placed some sutures and I was all set to go. I CAN FEEL THE LEFT SIDE OF MY MOUTH. I pushed some gauze into my mouth, changed it, then had mom carry all my stuff out the door. I went to the CR to inspect how I looked. Just great--hair was a mess, mouth was swollen (already), eyes were tired and i had blood on most parts of my face. Yeah, I recall it spurting out of my mouth in Dr. Macasiray's tug of war for the tooth with my gums. Owie. I've been making several failed attempts to staunch the blood all morning until I finished my lugaw-lunch, had mom come home and endorse my medicine to me, and then finally give me the 云南白藥, hun nam be^ iyo^, (白藥 is a class of medicine that stops blood flow and treats wounds, bruises, hemorrhages, etc...) so I could dab some on my gauze and shove it in my mouth. Now that stuff is highly effective, if not a bit bitter. It reduced my gauze from super bloody to a faint orange tint. All in thirty minutes. Wow. One more set of 云南白藥-ed gauze ensured i was no longer bleeding. So now I'm making this entry, and only my tongue, a section of my lower-lip and my teeth can feel. And I'm gonna have to do this again in a year for the upper set of teeth. I hate life. And when I speak, it's all slurred, and I can bite down on my lip as hard as i like and a) i'm not drawing blood and b) i can't feel a thing. And this area between my chin and my lower lip seems to have anesthesia in it, which explains why it's all numb and squishy. Like botox, I would imagine, or silicone. I can't smile or make facial expressions without my teeth and lips hurting. Oh pain. Oh agony. Oh woe is me. Okay, that's all. Hope you people never have to have wisdom teeth removed. Pray that your mouths are large enough. |
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May 18th, 2006
King of Grey POSTED AT 08:20 AM Waiting on a train that I know runs no more just outside of Baltimore Or Chicago well I just don't know Everyday it's harder when you spend your time alone Then there's no one ever there to say hello When the sweet morning sun does come And it always seems to come One day I will rise High above it all She will catch me if I fall And I know I will always be the King of Grey Sweet promises of springtime turn the brown lies of early fall Orbiting around a love that I once called my own Never have I felt so small And maybe it's the wintertime come to make me feel so cold But there is just a slight chance that this pain comes from watching smiles fade away They fade away One day I will rise High above it all She will catch me if I fall And I will live today And I will watch her dancing in the sun My whole world's come undone And I know I will always be the King of Grey Bring me summertime and take away this pain of mine This emptiness is far too much won't somebody please come pick me up ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I was listening to this song yesterday when I realized that this is exactly Andrew's kind of music. I've been listening to Andrew's music. Well, screw him! Hahaha... This is my song. As long as he doesn't hear, then he can't touch it. And he can't touch all the great ones... Aaron Lines, Dan Mackenzie, Kelly Chen... My mouth is swollen. And it hurts like hell. Oh this is just great. You'll get Chinese lyrics to some Classics in Cantonese next time. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Okay, excuse me, but personally, I am disgusted and ashamed of Xavier's language policies. You make people learn Mandarin. But do you think they're from China? Do you think Mandarin is their first Chinese language? Xavier's system should be more like Taiwan--you need to complete a native language (or in XS's case, a native dialect) requirement, wherein you can pass a certain test in your own native dialect. And THAT way, people won't forget how to speak their native dialects. FURTHERMORE! Sheesh... these students are Filipinos! What kind of a fucking Filipino teacher reprimands a student, in front of the whole High School, just because he wants to use Filipino? It wasn't even an English class! You think that the Chinese would do that in their Chinese schools? I am sick of you idiots deeming Filipino a lower or inferior or barbaric language simply because the concept of English exists. Xavier is a fucky school. I certainly don't understand why my parents want me to continue education there. |
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May 18th, 2006
I Can Always Count On You POSTED AT 10:44 PM 微風滲著雨點 微風彷似你的臉 常懷念 喜歡看下雨天 喜歡跟你再相見 重拾未了緣 愛意永不會間斷 就算世界與星空每天改變 愛你更多總不減半點 最愛聽你聲線 誰輕輕叫喚我 喚醒心中愛火 幸運只因有著你 不再流淚與磋砣 來深深抱緊我 讓痴心加上鎖 落寞歡欣聽著你柔情蜜語 在燃亮我 聲音永沒困阻 即使分隔數千里 情還在 心中燃熱似火 終於跟你再相見 懷念是折磨 愛意永不會間斷 就算世界與星空每天改變 愛你更多總不減半點 最愛聽你聲線 誰輕輕叫喚我 喚醒心中愛火 幸運只因有著你 不再流浪與蹉跎 來深深抱緊我 讓痴心加上鎖 落寞歡欣聽著你柔情蜜語 在燃亮我 從心的領略過 是不死的愛念 是用心的抉擇過 找到承諾與結果 仍感激你給我 像詩篇的愛慕 落在艱苦歲月里仍然是你 在陪著我 I realized that my ex-Chinese teacher, He Lao Shi (Ms. Hazel Wong) has actually unwittingly become something like a teacher for life. Last night, she asked me about the hate for my school (see last post). I explained, she explained, and we both ended up having a bout of laughter. At least I can always count on her to keep me in line and, as koalathebear stated, a sense of perspective. Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:39:36 PM): ni hao Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:39:48 PM): zenme dui guangqi zheme bu manyi ne? Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:40:03 PM): shei ma le shei a? shenme shihou fasheng de ne? Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:40:10 PM): ni you kan wo de blog? Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:41:02 PM): shi a! gang kan de Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:41:07 PM): zenme name shengqi ne? Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:41:32 PM): yin wei wo you qu guang qi de wang zhan Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:41:51 PM): kan jian guan yu xiamen de yi ye Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:42:25 PM): o! zenme le? Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:42:42 PM): guanyu shenme ne? Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:43:04 PM): guanyu xiamen de page Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:44:21 PM): page? Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:44:40 PM): wo yiwei zai blog limian, wo yijing jieshi le hen qingchu Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:44:44 PM): shi zheyang Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:45:59 PM): wo bu yuanyi guangqi yizhi bi women xuesheng xue putonghua, keshi ba women ziji de fangyan paichi Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:46:09 PM): page as in pahina... Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:47:00 PM): http://xcsep.xs.edu.ph/issues/week3/GoingtoMassandConversationDrills.php Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:47:01 PM): zhe li Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:48:07 PM): wo yi kan nei ge "conversation drills" de shihou, wo jiu juede hen shengqi Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:49:29 PM): wo bu tai mingbai ni shengqi shi wei le shenme? tamen yuanyi qu xiamen shi yinwei tamen xiang xue putonghua ma Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:49:41 PM): meiyou ren bi tamen ma Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:50:01 PM): women zai guangqi xuexiao limian la Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:50:10 PM): meinian shi yiyang Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:50:30 PM): bu xue putonghua, ni xiang xue shenme ne? Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:50:37 PM): yihou putonghua shi zui pupian de yuyan le Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:50:56 PM): wo bushi shuo women buyao zai xue putonghua le Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:50:58 PM): jiao nimen xue putonghua jiu shi xiang rang nimen yihou zuo shengyi hui you youshi Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:51:17 PM): wo shi shuo yao guangqi jiao putonghua, tongshi jiao women ziji de fangyan Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:51:39 PM): keshi bushi mei yi wei xuesheng you fangyan a Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:51:50 PM): dangran shi le! Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:51:51 PM): hen duo xuesheng dou shi feilubin ren Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:51:56 PM): ruoshi zheyang Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:52:06 PM): tamen jiu keyi xue bijiao shen de feiyu Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:52:27 PM): O! wo hai yiwei ni shuo de fangyan shi fujian hua Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:52:40 PM): ni shi shuo yao xue duo yi dianr feiyu ma? Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:53:24 PM): wo shi shuo yao rang xueshengmen jinbu xue tamen ziji de fangyan, buguan shi feiyu, fujianhua, dengdeng Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:53:40 PM): ruguo tamen de fangyan zhende shi fujianhua, na.. tamen yinggai xue Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:54:23 PM): zui hao de jiejue fangfa shi ni zhangda yi hou jian yi suo xuexiao Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:54:29 PM): na ni jiu keyi jiao ni xiang jiao de :D Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:55:00 PM): wo wei putonghua hao... wo mingbai putonghua xianzai hen zhongyao, keshi wo juede hui ziji de fangyan yeshi hen zhongyao... Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:55:01 PM): ... Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:55:09 PM): ni fafeng Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:55:39 PM): shi a! wo tongyi...ruguo liang ge neng yiqi jinxing, na shi zui hao de Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:56:04 PM): keshi xuexiao you name duo kemu yao jiao, rang nimen quan dou xue le, na hui rang nimen xue dao 5dian de Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:56:29 PM): jiusuan xuexiao meiyou jiao, xuesheng hai shi neng xue tamen ziji de yuyan Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:56:46 PM): ruguo women ba CLUB/ECA gandiao, women jiu you shijian le a! Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:57:21 PM): qishi, hen duo de xuesheng lian ziji de fangyan genben buhui Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:57:33 PM): fujianren tai beidong le Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:57:41 PM): xuexiao zhi neng zuo name duo...laoshi zai xuexiao ye meiyou xueguo guangdonghua, fujianhua a, keshi wei shenme wo hui ne? Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:57:46 PM): shi yinwei jiating de guanxi Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:57:50 PM): yuanyi ba fujianhua wangdiao weile xuanquan putonghua Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:57:57 PM): women bu neng ba quanbu de zeren dou tui dao xuexiao shenshang Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:58:08 PM): jiaoting de yingxiang, jiaoyu cai shi zui zhongyao de Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:59:11 PM): wo jue de xuexiao jiao putonghua buhui yingxiang yiwei xuesheng ba ziji de fangyan gei wang diao Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 7:59:15 PM): genben bu keneng Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:59:22 PM): dangran keneng le! Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:59:36 PM): wo renshi hen duo hen duo de xuesheng Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:59:43 PM): putonghua, tamen hui Allen Yu (5/18/2006 7:59:54 PM): feiyu he yingwen dou hen hao Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:00:01 PM): keshi dao fujianhua, shenme dou buhui Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:00:07 PM): na shi wo zui taoyan de Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:00:17 PM): na bushi xuexiao de cuo Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:00:23 PM): shi jiaoting, fumu qin de cuo Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:00:30 PM): DUI LA! Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:00:35 PM): xuexiao zhi neng xuanze zui hao de gei nimen Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:00:42 PM): bu neng quan dou gei nimen Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:00:48 PM): yi ban de zeren shi jiating Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:01:11 PM): xianzai de wenti shi hen duo jiating, fumu dou ba tamen shenwei fumu de zeren tui dao xuexiao de shenshang Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:01:16 PM): zhe shi bu keneng de Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:01:41 PM): zhege, wo zhende bu rencuo Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:02:05 PM): just can't be right Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:02:56 PM): ? Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:04:41 PM): i don't think it's fair that the children are raised to forget their own dialects, simply because the parents didn't teach them well. the second generation of Fukien are already completely illiterate in Fukien because their parents didn't teach them. If this continues, then we will rub the languages out of existence until the dialects all completely disappear, and everyone becomes the same... just english or chinese Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:05:53 PM): when I am asked what I am, I would like to be able to say "I am Fukien and Taishanese." not just "I am Han." or "I am Chinese." Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:06:49 PM): well, you can Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:06:52 PM): just say it Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:06:54 PM): if the schools only gave the important things a fighting chance, and do away with their stupid beliefs and customs, then the children would learn to appreciate their history and culture Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:07:30 PM): I can say it. but if this kind of lingual erosion continues, then in the future, Fukien, Cantonese, Shanghainese... these things won't have meaning anymore... everyone will only know "Chinese" Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:09:10 PM): it's like forgetting your childhood, or who your parents were. when you forget where you're coming from to simply "embrace" the commonality, you're allowing yourself to succumb to deindividualization, and i'm not willing to live with my generation doing that Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:09:33 PM): well then, you have a lot of things to do... Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:10:13 PM): hahaha... Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:10:20 PM):  Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:10:44 PM): i'm sure if Xavier can begin something like this, with all its influence, it can trigger a chain effect Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:10:57 PM): all the schools will think it's innovative to learn Fukien, and the parents certainly won't object to that Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:11:12 PM): xavier will just give you the responsibility...you take it! :D Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:11:50 PM): maybe i should become president of the Philippines and issue an edict that all schools must have a Native Dialect/Language requirement like in Taiwan Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:12:11 PM): great!!!!!!!!!! Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:12:23 PM): go go go mr. president!!! i believe in you Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:12:28 PM): i will vote for you Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:12:32 PM): i look forward to that day!!! Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:12:34 PM): hahahahahahaha Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:12:41 PM): wishful thinking Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:13:02 PM): do you know that almost 100% of the Fukien in the Philippines have never heard Fukien music in their lives? Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:13:02 PM): of course not! Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:13:26 PM): but you have several outposts for Fukien music... Singapore, Taiwan, Malaysia Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:13:37 PM): and yet they choose to surround themselves in Mandarin because it "sounds nice" Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:13:39 PM): ni jiu bie zai shengqi le..wo men jiu ba xiwang fang zai ni shenshang le Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:13:58 PM): )Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:14:06 PM): women yiqi yizhi qiwang ba Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:14:54 PM): maybe I'll issue a suggestion to Xavier to make a "Fukien" class or something Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:15:11 PM): i mean if they can force Mandarin on the students that aren't even Chinese, they can certainly force Fukien on them too Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:15:16 PM): well, maybe as a club or something Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:15:28 PM): nah...fukien's influence is too small Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:15:35 PM): but mandarin is worldwide Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:15:41 PM): yes, sadly... Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:15:57 PM): even Hong Kong has several schools that converted to Mandarin recently Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:16:12 PM): it's like a worldwide disease that infects the government leaders Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:16:23 PM): then displays effects on the public Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:16:44 PM): i fear for the day that all the dialects will just go "poof" and everyone will only be speaking Mandarin Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:17:04 PM): but wouldn't you feel like you're lacking something if you lost your ability to speak Cantonese? Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:17:13 PM): or even Filipino Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:18:46 PM): don't worry, with young people like you around, that won't happen! :D Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:19:47 PM): yes... sadly there aren't really many young people like me... i think it took becoming fluent in mandarin and english and cantonese to realize how scary it was to be on the verge of completely forgetting Fukien Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:20:00 PM): I could've forgotten a huge chunk of my childhood just like that Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:20:32 PM): it's scary... even Evan won't talk to me in hokkien.. if ever, it's english or Mandarin Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:20:34 PM): which is just evil Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:21:29 PM): well, maybe bec his fukien is good already or maybe he is speaking with his parents in fukien everyday at home, thus he just doesn't want to use anymore when talking to you Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:21:37 PM): to make a distinction...parents and friends Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:22:00 PM): sometimes, i feel awkward speaking to strangers cantonese, coz it's like talking to my family members Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:22:12 PM): but it doesn't mean i am not proud of being a cantonese Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:22:22 PM): it's just a matter of choice, since i have the choice Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:22:23 PM): Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:22:30 PM): hmmm Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:23:04 PM): for example, why didn't i speak with you in cantonese before the end of the year? Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:23:22 PM): bec speaking with you in cantonese means that our level of being a teacher-student would be compromised Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:23:22 PM): because you said you wanted me to improve my Mandarin first? Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:23:27 PM): well, that's one Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:23:48 PM): but another is that speaking in cantonese with you would discriminate others Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:24:12 PM): which means that speaking with you will make our relationship a little different from my relationship with other students Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:24:20 PM): and that's not too good.. Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:24:26 PM): ah that's very true Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:24:31 PM): we need to be sensitive to other people Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:24:37 PM): and we don't want to make others feel bad Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:24:41 PM): right!@ Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:24:45 PM): okay now it makes sense Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:25:10 PM): great! now, laoshi yao zou le...xia ci zai liao! Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:25:18 PM): hai! Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:25:23 PM): zaijian Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:25:28 PM): xiaoxin o! Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:25:38 PM): xie le! ni ye baozhong! Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:25:43 PM): wo hui Allen Yu (5/18/2006 8:25:45 PM): bye bye Hazel Wong (5/18/2006 8:25:54 PM): 88 |
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May 19th, 2006
Charmed Ends POSTED AT 05:35 PM It's the one I've loved throughout the six years that I religiously watched each episode, cutting out a section of my study time every week just to catch the episode of the week. And all throughout my life, even at the "bad" episodes of the seasons, where all the critics raved and hated, I would always think, this episode has something to offer us all. Always a lesson, or always a stepping stone to a lesson. The way the series ended was poetic and beautiful, showing that the Charmed legacy doesn't end, but multiplies tenfold. Phoebe got her way after all of the love she sacrificed throughout her life, she got the complete epitome of love. Paige got Henry, as we all know, who understands her like she needs to be understood, with love and joy and his mortal side keeps her in check. And Piper ended up with Leo, who were the perfect couple from season one all the way to the very end. And each had their own set of younger Charmed ones. Piper had Wyatt, Chris and Melinda. Phoebe had three girls with Coop. Paige had twin girls and a boy with Henry. And it shows Piper, old with age, with her granddaughters, reliving her life as a Charmed one, and Leo at magic school where he is most at home, and Paige and Phoebe both living the lives that they had always wanted. To see that Charmed power lives on in every aspect of their lives is comforting. But to realize that the series has ended brings me so much pain, and a beautiful kind of sadness. Charmed has been the joy of my life for so many years... my relief from school, from the hell that is life. It'll be hard to go on without it. Feeling: exhausted |
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May 22nd, 2006
Suan le! ~finished~ POSTED AT 03:19 AM First is the 5 day long torture of THE WISDOM TOOTH REMOVAL. It culminated just half an hour ago, where I had the sutures (I love that word) removed. I didn't have to get my mouth numbed senseless (oh, pun SO not intended!!!) all over again--they simply applied some fluid anesthesia, got the tweezers and snipped the threads out. Oh, now it's beginning to smart. *obscenities* ANYWAY... The second thing would be Rosie Dunne, a splendid book by Cecelia Ahern. I got some weird looks at the Orthodontist a while ago because the book was pink and had a woman in one of those cutesy-new-fashion-girl type drawing on the top. Plus, with a name like Rosie Dunne on the cover, it's obviously a girl's book. I finished it starting yesterday at about 3:15 pm. to today, about 4:00 pm. This book was pure genius. Actually, I expected the two to get together when they were about 35, but I persisted in reading on anyway. When she had turned forty and there was still no sign of anything happening, I was getting a bit miffed. By the time she'd gotten the letter from (the bastard known as) Greg, I was hopping. I thought that she'd FINALLY get with him already. Hey, life start's at forty right? Wrong. Dead wrong. She procrastinated and acted scared and wasted time. She let those idiots at a frickin' CHATROOM named RELIEVED DIVORCED DUBLINERS to dictate where her life would go. So for the next ten years (which in the book, disappeared like that), she did nothing. Finally, it was when Alex began getting pissed at (slutty) Bethany, I realized that the plot was coming to a close. They were getting together. I was happy beyond words. Then they didn't. They let Rosie's daughter Katie find love with Toby, her childhood best friend and unwittingly email Alex about best friends falling in love before Alex finally cracked and sent another letter straight to Rosie. And at the end.. man it was such a cop out. I guess the comfort there is that Katie and Toby found their love at the ages of 31, instead of 51. And even still... no banana. It's funny to see how mistakes can haunt you and your friends for a lifetime. One tiny mistake. Oh, and the lost chances. So many... you wouldn't believe. WALTER'S BACK, BITCHES!!!!! Randomness. I shall go join Henry with dvorak. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- HOIYA!!!!!!! C tbr, yd. mahrpcyf ru frg ap.b-y ircbi yr x. axn. yr p.ae ydcow xgy C am ircbi yr lroy cy abf,afv Cy er.ob-y mayy.p yday frg erb-y gbe.poyabew ao nrbi ao cy-o rb mf xnriv Br, n.y-o o..vvv ,day jrgne yreaf-o o.jp.y m.ooai. x.Z Dr, axrgyvvv _Cu frg-p. aon..lw yd.b frg jab-y u..n xaev >k.b a bcidymap. er.ob-y jrmlap. yr p.an ncu. u.apv_ ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Okay, look. I trusted you with a large chunk of my music. And I mean a large one. That's part of my soul. And I can't believe it's all become bitter. We had to come to this. You know the way you were acting, and I was just too stupid and superficial and sad to see it coming. I hate you. I hate the way you act. I hate the way you're always so needy. Do us both a favor and get up and over me. But just so you know, when I listen to those songs, I do not feel any part of you. Except that Chinese one. Sure, you can have it. I feel Canada, and sunsets, and love but I don't feel you. So you can just get the hell away from me because I never want to speak to you ever again. Stay away from my blog, stay away from my Friendster, stay away from my friends and don't even think my name. You piss me off to no end, I hope you know that. Just goes to show that there are some things you can't touch. You never will. I'm waiting to forget you, you loser. |
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May 23rd, 2006
The Ability To Read In Fukien POSTED AT 01:07 PM It's because that fucking loser would've followed me around. Well, too bad. You're not gonna follow me here anymore. Anyway, if he does, i'm destroying this blog. So, anyway, monstrous, annoying fuckers aside, here's another curveball before I get to the heart of the post. Mom and Dad have successfully screwed my system up. The whole deposit slip system has been bloated. They say they "segregated" it. It's just crammed together. Not nice. SO! Onto the heart of the post. The ability to read and write characters in Fukien is highly esteemed in my eyes. Here's a list of common terms from Mandarin that I have translated to Fukien. And I blatantly refuse to use Simplified characters. They just bother me. So, here we go, in no particular order: (Testing it out... (thanks Martin!) Click to learn how to read Mandarin words in Fukien...) |
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May 25th, 2006
I Save My Blog Topics In My Phone's Outbox POSTED AT 11:09 PM So I have three major topics to talk about: 1) "I can promise you that I'll love you forever because even though we're miles apart, it's all one sky and miles mean nothing in the sky." That may be really faulty logic, but I guess it can be really romantic to say to someone. I reserve copyright on the phrase. Maybe it should be "My love for you is like the sky, because even though we're miles apart, it's all under one sky, and miles mean nothing in the sky." But there. You understand the logic. 2) Aye (阿爺) (余文湛), my paternal grandfather, was a great person. Mom's recently been giving tidbits about him, but there's still very little I know about him. He was a great businessman, grew up here and was raised by Pakong, my great grandfather, was a very generous philanthropist. He smoked, loved bridge, all those things. Last night, I was listening to Hold My Hand by Don Cornell (1954... I think jedandgregorio would enjoy this song... or not), and mom told me, "You know, I think you and your Aye would've gotten along really well. He enjoyed listening to music with these kinds of tunes. Like Unforgettable?" and she sang a few bars. Sigh... I really wish I'd gotten to know him. I don't have a single memory of him. Ironically, the earliest memory I remember having is of his funeral. 3) How Jackie and I met I remember being invited over to the Kawsek household with my family. I don't even remember what we did... but there was Meggie and there was Jackie. And Jackie hung around with us, and was just really different from Meggie, and we chatted and stuff. Alex hit me in the back when I declared he was Gwen in the test on the site that Meggie's barkada had. Jackie burst out laughing. I intentionally avoided mentioning Charmed as a favorite show to Jackie because from experience, hardly anyone watches that. So in the garden area just where we were about to leave, I asked her, "Smallville?" She said she had the DVD's of the first season. "Buffy?" "Yeah! But I haven't got any time anymore because I'm so TV deprived.. homework, and Meggie... etc..." "What's your favorite show then?" "Err... Charmed?" She flashes a "hehe" grin. What irony. We swapped emails and the rest is history. I haven't been writing recently. Just dry. Or lazy. CHINA PEOPLE ARE COMING HOME, BITCHES!!!!!!!! |
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May 26th, 2006
JACKIE'S HOME!!!!!! POSTED AT 11:17 PM She called me up at eight plus. We caught up about everything. Gossip, gossip. But at least we know Roxas is a real ass. Anyway... So it's morning on the twenty seventh of May, days are long, expectations are painful and things are hard to initiate. Sadness abounds, except the few things that save me. That is, my friends, Heroes 5 and Avatar. So I'm shallow. Sue me. Beautiful Love by The Afters Faraway . . . I feel your beating heart All alone Beneath the crystal stars Staring into space What a lonely face I'll try to find my place with you What a beautiful smile Can I stay for awhile? On this beautiful night We'll make everything right My beautiful love Larger than the moon, my love for you Worlds collide as heaven pulls us through The secret of the world is written in the stars I'm carrying your heart in mine What a beautiful smile Can I stay for awhile? On this beautiful night We'll make everything right My beautiful love Maybe a greater thing will happen Maybe all will see Maybe your love will catch like fire As it burns through me (3x) What a beautiful smile Can I stay for awhile? On this beautiful night We'll make everything right My beautiful love Lalalala Love My beautiful Lalalala Love My beautiful love |
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May 27th, 2006
前所未見 POSTED AT 11:36 PM 這次是屬於那時候. 近來, 我聽陳慧琳的一首歌的時候, 我有想一想. "前所未見" 是甚麼意思? 可是無論怎麼想也想不開. 我查詞典也找不到這個詞. 只有這兩個, 如下: 前所未有: hitherto unknown, unprecedented 前所未聞: never heard of before 從這兩個, 我們可以推斷: "前所未見" 的意思應該是 never seen before. 哈哈. 好! 我就留一首歌的歌詞給你們. 叫做.... 你還沒猜嗎? 前所未見 - 陳慧琳 推開一万扇窗 到這裡才遇上 畢生想找那片夢中出現過海洋. 約錯的會太多 你最尾才亮相 唯有你的家裡那風景最堪欣賞 誰的手 誰的肩 回家一樣溫暖 能一扑進就不想再逛大世界花園 碧海 藍的天 傳說裡的伊甸 地球寸寸都走遍 為何也看不見 然而在你這裡遇見 仿佛枕在你肩 才能沉沉睡去 幾多星的旅店 亦不可讓我安眠 見慣公路兩邊 四季那時令轉 來到這溫室裡至找到我的春天 誰的手 誰的肩 回家一樣溫暖 能一扑進就不想再逛大世界花園 碧海 藍的天 傳說裡的伊甸 地球寸寸都走遍 為何也看不見 然而在你這裡遇見 誰的手誰的肩 回家一樣溫暖 能一扑進就不想再逛大世界花園 碧海 藍的天 傳說裡的伊甸 地球寸寸都走遍 為何也看不見 然而在你眼裡望見 |
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May 28th, 2006
Hokkien! POSTED AT 11:10 AM Now from an outsider's point of view, Hokkien is a rather shallow and corny language, but that's the loss of the ignorant. Hokkien is actually, among the dialects I am familiar with, the most expressive. The words exude their meanings very well, whereas Mandarin is too gentle (as if the words are too toned down) and Cantonese is too strong. Fukien is just right for me. Here are some of the things I learned while listening to them: 損失 sun sit - waste/destroy 退 theh - fade 祖 zo - hereditary 鑽石 suan zio^ - diamond 色水/顏色 siak zui/gan siak - color (colloquial/literary) 領導有方 ling tao u hong - good leadership There were many more, but I don't remember them, or I already understand them since they're fairly basic, and did not feel it necessary to put them here. Hehe... Before you know it, my Fukien will be exemplary. Anyway! I realized exactly why a lot of Fukien have very bad Mandarin. Or rather, they're really fluent but it's really annoying to listen to. It's because they speak with a Fukien tongue. See, Fukien words are formed at the lips and the front of the mouth. (F.Y.I. Cantonese comes from the cheeks and sides of the mouth) Mandarin, however, uses the whole mouth and some parts of the throat if said properly. Because of this, Fukien have a lot of trouble recognizing the difference between z- and zh-, c- and ch-, and s- and sh-. When speaking Mandarin with sounds only coming from the front of the mouth and predominantly from the lips, there is no way to differentiate the six above sounds from their corresponding counterparts. Now a lot of Fukien, especially the ones raised in largely Mandarin speaking areas (Taiwan and China, mostly), have little to no difficulty speaking proper Mandarin. And also, the average Fukien in the Philippines speaks Mandarin rather slowly. Now while they have completely mastered vocabulary and tones, they just lack the pronunciation. Which is why the whole Fukien side of my family has a bit of trouble pronouncing Mandarin, even more so because they were raised here, where Fukien is stronger than Mandarin. Heck, even my dad (who was also raised here, and also speaks a Southern Dialect as a first Chinese language) has funny sounding Mandarin. Observe: Ni bu zi dao ma? (Ni bu zhi dao ma?) Ni yi zi ci. (Ni yi zhi chi) Ze ge si wo de. (Zhe ge shi wo de) Mmhmm... Elsewhere, other than the fact that I think that the Fukien sound better speaking Fukien than in Mandarin in many instances, it's also quite ironic that almost all of the Fukien in the Philippines haven't heard a single Fukien song (other than nursery rhymes and things). But only my mom declares that she can't appreciate it. My mom's whole family (who all haven't heard any Fukien music before) were all immensely eager to listen, delineated by my mom's third eldest sister nodded enthusiastically when I asked her if she wanted to listen to Fukien music. She even asked me to write her a whole CD. I'm giving it next week. Now I'm looking for Fukien music, because I only have 2 Fukien songs (HAVE YOU ANY IDEA HOW HARD IT IS TO PROCURE ANY FUKIEN MUSIC THAT ISN'T ALSO USED IN CHURCHES????) and they're all from the eighties or early nineties (by the sound of it), much like Emil Chau's songs. Any Taiwanese music I've found so far (just one: 火車刀位去 by Jay Chou) is completely not understandable thanks to the annoyingly loud beat. But then again, I can get one of those Emil Chau songs... he sang a song that included a bit of Taiwanese (and since Emil Chau can sing loud and clear, we won't have any trouble understanding) called ti* o o (天黑黑). Yay. I'm off to download Fukien songs. EDIT::::::::: Off Wikipedia 郡中鴃舌鳥語，全不可曉。如：劉呼澇、陳呼澹、莊呼曾、張呼丟。余與吳待御兩姓， 吳呼作襖，黃則無音，厄影切，更為難省。(臺海使槎錄 卷二 赤嵌筆談) In this place, the language is as birdcall – totally unintelligible! For example: for the surname Liú, they say "Lâu"; for Chén, "Tân"; Zhuāng, "Chng"; and Zhāng is "Tiuⁿ". My deputy's surname Wú becomes "Ngô͘". My surname Huáng does not even have a proper vowel: it is "N̂g" here! It is difficult to make sense of this. (Records from the mission to Taiwan and its Strait, Volume II: On the area around Fort Provintia, Tainan) |
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May 29th, 2006
May 30th, 2006
It's Good To See That You're Doing Fine POSTED AT 03:38 AM Jackie's holding up well since China. Bro. Haw is going back to Ateneo to finish his studies in Priesthood. Okay, well almost everyone. Eccentric. When the days are quiet, you know that something's about to happen. The sections have come out, and there's this terrified disbelief in my gut about what might happen in school. Do I even wanna go back? Why is my first answer to that a resounding "no"? I'm sick of the way Xavier runs things. If I had a choice, I wouldn't go there. I'd rather be elsewhere, kung saan mas matino yung sistema. Nakakapagod minsan, e, alam mo? Araw-araw, pare-pareho... wala... sawa na. Sana maging maayos ang XS this year. At salamat, tinanggal na rin si Father Go. Sometimes, it gets tiring to think about Xavier, and the arm long list of to-do's that I have yet to accomplish. Xavier brings problems. I don't like problems. Another time. The Show Is Free by Doc Walker I'm gonna live forever just wait and see And I'll turn into leather from the sun on me So stick around my fair-weather friends The show is free Well, I'll be on some highway until I fall And I'm gonna do things my way or not at all You can see it or you can dream it That's your call Well I won't let this old small town be the life of me When there's so much more out there I haven't seen Now I'm on my way, radio playing, beautiful day Where I lay my head is where I'm meant to be Yesterday is out of sight I don't know where I'll sleep tonight It's a great big world out there and it's all for me And the show is free Well I'm not trying to sell you on anything I'm just trying to tell you what I see So take a look around my friend The show is free Now I'm on my way, radio playing, beautiful day Where I lay my head is where I'm meant to be Yesterday is out of sight I don't know where I'll sleep tonight It's a great big world out there and it's all for me And the show is free Now I'm on my way, radio playing, beautiful day Where I lay my head is where I'm meant to be Yesterday is out of sight I don't know where I'll sleep tonight It's a great big world out there and it's all for me And the show is free The show is free Yeah the show is free ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- Today, I saw pictures. You had pictures. I've gotten so accustomed to knowing everything you do, everything you've done, that seeing you in some foreign place shocked me to no end. But hey, letting go is hard. |
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